Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength –Mark 12:30
Sometimes this can be a difficult task as hand: to love the Lord through all of our difficulties, challenges and ugliness. How can I love a Lord who doesn’t seem to be answering my prayers? Am I not good enough? Would I be a terrible parent? I have asked myself these questions; at the time I wasn’t certain where I stood at times with him but he always knew where he stood with me. He answers and provides in his time, in THE BEST time.
Take a moment to reflect and see where the Lord answered your prayers. If the Lord had answered your prayers when you first began to pray for them would have married the right person? Or had the best job opportunity? We live in a world of immediate pleasures where practicing patience and waiting for a good opportunity is almost non-existent.
Open your heart to the Lord and lean into him, I mean really lean hard into him. The Lord will provide if you trust in him, in his timing, giving it all over to him; be intensional in your daily activities from opening your morning with him, loving and feeding your body as a temple with nutritious foods to inviting him into your exercise routine and daily conversations with him. He is your best BFF, your father and he will provide.
Dear Lord, Thank you for hearing my prayers and providing for me in the best time. I realize I am not always patient but trust in you to guide me and show me the best life I can lead.
Be still and know that I am God. –Psalm 46:10
Our next door neighbor’s 4 year old son was playing on top a pile of rocks we had in our driveway to even out our grade. We were just newlyweds so child’s play wasn’t really part of our vocabulary. At one point he looked up to see another little guy on his bike with training wheels riding next to his dad. “Hey! Do you know me?” our neighbor hollered across the yard. His sincerity oozed from the question.
Children and their innocence can teach all of us to let our guard down; step out of your comfort zone and meet someone or something new. He wasn’t worried what this boy or his dad might think or say or not say. He reached out and in his own way.
As I reflect on times of loneliness or despair I wished I had sought out a friend as my 4 year old neighbor did that day. I do not know where you are in your journey to conceive, but I encourage you to reach out to the Lord, to dig a bit into your faith and seek out a friend or counsel to talk to. Look around you when you are waiting to see your doctor. All of the women and couples are there for the same reason like you trying to have a family or grow family that they have. They are aching like you. You may be surprised that you know them better than you think just because you are sharing similar trials.
You may be wondering if the boy on the bike stopped to talk to my neighbor. No he did not. He looked up to see who was yelling but he never stopped pedaling and passed on by. Our little neighbor didn’t seem bothered and went right back to his heap of rocks. Don’t allow an opportunity to grow a relationship pass you by especially your personal relationship with the Lord. He does not ignore those who love him. Sometimes his plans don’t coincide with our own and we feel forgotten. Be patient and strong as he reveals his plan for you. Its always better than what you had planned for yourself. Lean into him and his word so when you hear him ask “Do you know me?” you can answer lovingly and boldly, “Yes Lord I know you and I trust in the plans that you have for me.”
Dear Lord, thank you for allowing me to know you, love you and trust in your ways. Give me the strength when I am in the pits of exhaustion and disappointment to reach out to you and lean not on my own understanding but into you. Amen.